The following weekend was my family reunion. Another long drive. This time his BS seemed to run high.
This made things a bit more difficult as he was more irritable and more anti-social. By the end of the reunion on the way to hang out a little longer with family at my Grandmother's he wasn't feeling so great so we decided to head back to Mom's. My Mom had her own vehicle and was taking one of her brother's home and then would meet us back at her house where her boyfriend was. Unfortunately things didn't go so well with him when we got there and we ended up leaving to drive four hours back to our home. That was not a fun drive. High BS and stress and exhaustion are not good mixes.
Sunday we rested. Tuesday I was supposed to be back at work from my vacation. On that Monday, while vacuuming I herniated four discs in my lower back. I went to the ER where I had a CAT scan and was given some shots and sent home to rest with an appointment with my family doc for tuesday. Tuesday I was still in awful pain and was given more shots at my family doc's office as well as a precript for pain pills, muscle releaxers, steroid anti inflammatories, PT and pain management. And no work. I'm hoping to be able to return to work on the 20th. Back seems to be feeling a bit better. PT and drugs are definitely helping. The week I messed my back up one of my husband's friend's lost his son to suicide. More funerals. More grieving.
Grief has been a huge part of this year for us. It seems just when we are getting our legs back under us something else happens. So many tears have been shed over too many losses. The Teenager goes back to school on Wednesday and I hope that will help to maybe make things feel more normal. That maybe we can get back on track. But I know that grief is a companion with us right now. At this point, I'm very familiar with the stages. In the meantime, we take it one day at a time, one moment at a time.